Well the last part of Friday went well. I got home and Harley was there, so he and I went to go see Horton Hears a Who (very good movie by the way). But before we left Taka called. She was bored so invited her to come see the movie with us. So we met up at the mall and saw the movie, then went to eat at Chili’s afterwards. I was wearing my black trench, fadora had, and my gold claws on my left hand. Some of the looks people were giving me were pretty funny. ^^
Saturday Harley did the route. I woke up at noon, got food, helped Harley find a good laptop on dell.com, then went to take him home. On the way there we stopped at Target and he got a fancy hat just like mine. I had to drive him the rest of the way home. Then we stopped my Grandma’s (it was their anniversary) and visited. It was nice to see them again.
After we got home mom took a nap and I played around on my ocarina. After a while she went to go drop my sister off at Dad’s, pick up a movie and some food for us. She called Roo too while she was out to ask if he could give me a ride to rpg night (mostly to give me a chance just to talk with him, because got knows when either steven or tj (or even both *shivers*) are around I can hardly get a word in). So it was nice to have that 6 minutes in the car with just me and him. SQUEE!! XD
But we had to pick TJ up along the way, so my joy was short lived. TJ noticed that I was pulling off my best impersonation of Roo by my clothing, so he stole Roo’s scarf and put it on me. It was very warm, and nice to have around my neck. ^^
When we got to steven’s I decided that it was time to give Roo back his scarf. So in an act of bravery (and impulse) I went up behind him and actually placed the scarf around his neck. (I know, to you people it may seem like a stupid nothing, but this was a big gesture for me). Roo had to finish some character things, so I just doodled until we were all plot deviced in to the game. We didn’t get thrown in until 15 minutes ’till we had to leave, but that’s alright. I sat next to Roo the whole night. I even made an attempt at flirting my offering the last easter cake (yay me. ^^)
The game time was done, so in good fun I stole Roo’s hat and put mine on his head. To my surprise, it fit perfectly. Turns out he and I wear the same hat size. Go figure. ^-^
So he was wearing my fedora, and I his beret. It felt a little big, but I didn’t have mirror to see how it looked. He drove me home (with TJ unfortunately) and when we got to my house I almost forgot to switch hats back with him. But thankfully I remembered and did so before he pulled out of the driveway. All in all it was an okay night (with the exception of TJ -_-)
But now here I sit in bed writing this, and feeling very depressed, because all I can think about is fun times with him, and future events where he’ll be present. And I try to think of how I can say how I feel without feeling stupid, or like I’m being a burden. That’s probably one of the biggest reasons (apart from my cowardice) that keeps me from saying anything to him. I don’t want the knowledge of my liking him to change anything. Hugs….but….Arg. I’ve just gotta stop thinking. -_-
